Saturday, January 27, 2007 @ 6:48 PM
back after the week! cant believe im still so busy with school. the competition is coming up, not forgetting the CNY and old folks home performance. so now i have practice almost everyday of the week except monday. haiz. my legs are gonna break really soon.
i didnt manage to attend the class outing yesterday 'cos i was really broke! not a cent left.. damn.
watched the dota competition in school on friday. it was pak's team against tracy's. no fight at all. total thrashing, final score was like 58 kills to 3. sad case eh.
alford, next time i see you got new joke le.. liddat not irritated bah? hahahahah. XD
i gotta push on and push hard! things are not coming easy. but they're still managable on the whole i guess.
now got stomach flu. keep having diarreheoa. mum said it was the mcdonalds i took with the wushu people for dinner on friday night, but i have the feeling that the coconut milk in the ondeh ondeh i had for breakfast yesterday wasnt fresh. argh.
ill keep waiting for you. until that day comes, i will hold on. you know why? its 'cos love is the only thing which lasts.
Saturday, January 20, 2007 @ 8:48 PM
i just remembered i have homework. and tuition is from 3 to 5. im so screwed.
i think what wilson said makes sense though. being yourself and staying happy is good enough for me. why bother about radical change? its so forcible and pretentious. its not worth the time and effort.
but then again, we have to consider that change can be for the better. (balanced argument eh? XD) is changing one's attitude to be a better person not a good thing? if so, then putting all those convicts and juveniles in prisons and homes around the world would be wasted efforts. isnt it more of a influence to change rather than mere physical punishment? i guess we have to know where to draw the line rather than walk past it and suffer as what we're not.
i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive i will be positive
Friday, January 19, 2007 @ 7:27 AM
finally can update after a long school week. things have been hectic with lots of homework and deadlines to meet. i think im lucky so far to have survived. lol.
perception. it affects us so. people often judge others by first impressions, and even judge others based on their actions and behaviour. "Its not what i look like, but what i do that defines me." how true can that be. so, do people behave the way they do because they are merely being themselves, or are they trying to be someone defined by action? i suppose there are people who belong to both sides of the case. the important thing, perhaps, is which do I belong to?
have you ever been in a situation where you suddenly feel so self-conscious and aware of yourself? so much so that you become afraid that you will embarass yourself? and the repercussions of hence thereafter?
is being self-conscious a bad thing? trying to be someone who is widely accepted in social circles and not castaway because of difference? its amazing how a group of similar people would react to someone who is different from them. ostracising, perhaps, is a better term. to what lengths would a person go to to prevent themselves from being eliminated by the rest?
which is more important, being yourself or being someone who is accepted? lets face it -- the world is cruel.
i can accept the fact that people are born different. but isnt it our differences that make us unique and special? shouldnt that bring us together instead of apart? i guess i do pity those who are different. but sometimes, not because they behave the way they do, but because they try TOO hard to be someone they're not. THATS when people start to hate them.
is there even hope for me? i now feel so not in place when around you. there always seems to be someone there to fill my "place". im not needed in anyway. im useless to you, i guess. there is always another person there for you when they're needed. what kind of role do i play in YOUR life? do you know what kind of role YOU play in mine?
Saturday, January 13, 2007 @ 5:29 PM
finally back. this post cant be long though.
i recovered from my fever, but im still coughing and sneezing. jeez, what does it take for a nose to get well eh?
i realised im seriously physically weak now. the flu has killed me. i lost a total of 4kg, and now running and pushups are a problem for me. this is bad. how am i gonna train on tuesday? i must quickly toughen up again.
homework.. is piling up. this year is gonna be stressful. i cant play and rest as much as last year. the work has started and im gonna go all cylinders. gogogo!
things are happening faster than i can comprehend. but there is no more time for comprehension. just realisation of the truth.
Sunday, January 07, 2007 @ 6:07 PM
im finally back to post after orientation 1~
sad thing is, im stuck at home doing this because im sick.. my fever was varying from 37 to 40 degrees for the past few days. my temperature finally came down today and i hope it stays down. i cant afford to miss school tomorrow or wednesday, as there would be no replacement for the lion dance for the nexus opening ceremony. and whats worse, i dont get to watch deathnote 2.. *sobs*
anyway, day two of o1 was better, as the jc1s were more enthusiastic and more open. i didnt have to shout so much during the cheering. but then again, they were still slightly passive. after our debrief on day 2, cheethia ogls went to the ntuc hypermart at amk to buy the stuff needed for day 3.
day 3 had the best show by the jc1s, all were very enthusiastic and on. after dismissal, we went to kfc for dinner, and ran into jaguaria and pumera. i guess the ogl spirit doesnt die so easily, and all of us were still very crazy and hyper. we even were cheering at the bus stops!
next day had training. i was feeling unwell at that time, and i made it home with a high fever. i was sick all the way to today, and hopefully the fever doesnt come back. i cant afford to miss training tomorrow.
why are u asking me these questions? dont you know how i feel?
Wednesday, January 03, 2007 @ 5:00 AM
day one of orientation 2007! wah tired beyond anything. even long training doesnt make me as exhausted as this. its like going on a sugar diet and feeling drained at the end of the day.
day one was a typical day one, the jc1s were moderately enthusiastic. i have yet to see someone who would take the iniative in the group. i guess all a group needs is a single person to hype the group up. what we as ogls can do is moderate, as we are mere facilitators in this programme. actually, i think this is why we can be so much more hyper during the ogl workshop than orientation. its because we are more physically involved in the activities rather than watching on the sidelines.
hopefully day two will be better, and the school shakes with all the cheers from the different Ancients!
here we go again..