Thursday, May 31, 2007 @ 12:42 AM
im finally back from DE! ive got mixed feelings about this camp too. haiz.
lets recount my experiences during the 6 day 5 night camp. its gonna be a long post i think. haha.
lets see, settling logistics, chionging to toilet to 轰炸, disciplining the campers. goodness. stepping on junwei's specs, getting to know the team, rushing here and there. ahh forget it lah. i guess some stuff are well off remembering rather than recollecting. whats more, this camp is something i will never forget.
there is a group of people i would like to thank, for giving me the experience of a lifetime and being there when i needed them. here goes:
MELVIN: 老大! eh you shld know, that no matter how much i suan you and say i hate you and your jokes, that im just kidding rite? i guess im lucky that i know you even before the camp, and that we can work well together eh. thanks for being there when i needed to talk, and for guiding me along the way man. you know i LOVE you too. ahahahhaah. (guys dont take this seriously)
XUEFEN: 小老大! oh man, dunno what we'll do w/o you helping us to coordinate the programme and dispatching the campers. thanks for always being there to help out even though you were sick since day 0, and always showing concern for me eh. haha, too bad asking me to rest is not much use. XP
JOSIAH: ahhahaha. the other 老大! woah ure a serious person when ure serious man. your efficiency is really top-notch. w/o you to direct and lead us, i guess DE camp will not be what it was this year. and thanks for always being so open and directing me along when i needed it. keep mugging dude, and you'll overtake sharlene sooner or later. HAHA.
CHERYN: my twin sis! haha gots lots of things to say but dunno how to say. but i think you understand right? we twins got telepathy de. ahaha. i guess ure probably the most tired out of the EXCO cos ure always busy. haha. thanks so much for the food (although it kinda sucks, but who can do anything about it eh?) haha. and for all the concern you shown me during camp. haha.
JERLYN: one of the GALLANT GIs! haha. thanks for always helping out and constantly being there for the team, esp when im not around yeah. and for always remembering to help me take my stuff around. hahaha. dont think im a kaypoh okay, just that im really concerned when you got that DREAMY look around you. haha. and yeah, rock on GIRLFRIEND! ahaha.
HUIQI: mother hen! haha. refer to jerlyn's thank you comments oso lah. haha. but then hor, ure much stronger than both of us cos you always manage to remain calm and such. you really zai lah. and stop bullying me lah! haha. always take advantage of me when im being nice. zzz. ahaha. and dont worry too much about ure phone okay. things like this happen all the time. smile! (:
CHARMINE, RACHEL, ALLENA, JASLINE, YUDING, ERIC, (and all the other SIs which i cant recall): thanks for either reminding me to stay awake, tuck in my attire, or showing concern for me. haha. its the small things which really count, so thank you for being there and showing all your stuff for this camp!
XAVIER AND TONY: for coming back to the camp to help us out, for buying our supper, how much more can we thank you? THANKS GUYS!! XD
GROUP 7 GALLANT: haiz. again so much to say but dont know how to. aye, you guys are the best man. an instructor couldnt ask for more in a group. your enthusiasm, positive learning attitude, individual personalities and more made facilitating your group such an enjoyable experience. just as much i hope you have learnt some stuff from the camp, i have learnt as much from you guys. and i hope we will still hang out yeah. i sorely miss you all already. haha. GALL-wuh? GALL- ANT!
AB INSTRUCTORS (esp the log team): thanks for helping out the DE team along the way. we certainly have learnt alot about organizing and instructing from you guys. thanks for lightening our burden as well! haha. esp for logistics and admin yeah? tytyty!
MR NG and MR TAN: our camp commandant! thanks for being ever patient and guiding us along the way, and directing us when we go astray in our duties. w/o you to help and guide us, DE camp would not be the successful camp it is. thanks for taking all our feedback and comments seriously, and ensuring the welfare of the instructors as well. oh yeah, and congrats on your baby! haha. (:
MS TAN: my logistics teacher I/C! haha. im so sorry for your shortened sleep at night, and all the last minute work. and thanks for taking all the extra time off, and helping me even when ure sick and tonsils are giving you hell. haha. and thanks to ur other half too! XD
MR SENG: haiz. disappointed leh, my 鲍鱼 gone. zzz. hahaha! thanks for being ever fun and caring about us, and for listening to me complain always. ahaha. ur fun-ness and ability to handle things well really inspired me to be a better leader! but im not gg to be a teacher! argh. ahaha. DE 07 would definitely not be what it is w/o you as well. cheers! (:
and to all those i missed, you really played an important part in making this camp a better one. i love you guys!
im gonna miss being part of DE camp, as much as it changed my life and perspectives last year, this year playing a different role in the camp was just as eye-opening. lets all mugg hard and chiong for our a levels, and do AJ proud!
这些年一个人风也过 雨也走有过泪 有过错还记得坚持甚麽真爱过 才会懂会寂寞 会回首终有梦 终有你在心中朋友一生一起走那些日子不再有一句话 一辈子一生情 一杯酒朋友不曾孤单过一声朋友你会懂还有伤 还有痛还要走 还有我my frens, not necessarily DE camp ppl, just know that i treasure you all, for who you are and what you'll be.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007 @ 7:45 AM
argh. the past few days really suck.
proposal after compilation after discussion. tutorial after test after deadline. oh god. this week is really draining. i cant seem to recall a time when i slept earlier than 3am in the morning. i need a caffeine overdose pronto.
anyway, delta camp is nearing! i dont know if i should feel glad or sad. glad in the sense that i can finally chuck aside everything else and work on my studies. sad in the sense that i no longer have a reason to slack. hahaha. such a contradictory statement. oh well. XD
today i looked at the picture that we took during sandcastle recee. i swear, dunno if its someone trying to be funny or wad, or maybe the person moved while the picture was taken, but there is a shadow of SOMETHING behind me and melvin lah! omg. just like the movie Shutter. damn scary can? but i think its just DARREL ANG lah. ahhahaha. maybe its friendly. (:
i guess quite a lot of things have happened to me again. but this time i have the time to sort things out on my own while im stoning on the train to and fro from school. im getting it back again, my drive and my confidence. full steam from now on.
DELTA CAMP! MUST GO MUGG IVLE! XD
慢慢懂了其实失恋是一种力量因为孤独让人可以回想是在哪边该下车却没下才到了一个不想到的地方
Saturday, May 19, 2007 @ 7:06 AM
im back finally! if things didnt take so long to get uploaded on IVLE, i probably wouldnt have time to update. haha.
went for DE camper briefing yesterday. was supposed to be short and sweet, simple and follow instructions. but then jc1s are such precocious little things. ask and ask questions like nobody's business. and whats worse, those questions are really what i call 废话. packing list is compulsory, just pack and go. dont come and say, "may i know what this is for?" pls lah, first time u go camp ah? tsk.
training. warm up already, was supposed to do my jumps, den i went to play bball. goodness. i cannot slack already. tuesday go chiong 侧空翻!
went to school early for meeting today. we managed to finish reviewing quite a bit of things. and the lion dance for college day. woohoo. the VIP look at me and smile lah. i was stunned for a while. i think kr and sixu oso tio stun lah. ahahah. what a interesting way to do a college day performance.
tio pangseh by the rest, so went home and cut hair. ahah. end of story.
if you are sin2x, then i am cos2x. together we are 1. how many letters are there in the alphabet? 26? wrong. its 25. cos U and I are 1. how i wish i could tell this to that special someone.
Thursday, May 17, 2007 @ 5:05 AM
im proud of ajc. im proud of the fighting spirit. and all the teams which did us proud.
im proud of you and the team. im proud of those who stood up and cheered them on. im proud to be there in the stadium.
although we lost on both frontiers, we did show our best and gave them all we got. so, go on and make us proud once more. (:
i dont understand some things. sometimes im just plain stupid. sometimes im oversensitive. but i guess thats how i am. if people dont talk, i will never know how you feel.
so talk to me, instead of casting me aside.
silence, and emptiness. im still strong.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007 @ 6:14 PM
shuai dai le. my com at home is fucked up. now im reduced to com lab in school.
so many things are happening at once. too fast, all at once. i think no matter how strong someone can be, he has his limits. and im afraid im reaching them.
maid went back to myanmar to visit parents. meaning mum is at home doing all the stuff herself, not to mention my lil bro and sis. i have to help out more at home, to help my mum.
delta ex camp is coming up, more and more logistics to handle and take care of. its only a week away? wow lah. and not forgetting wushu camp after that.
grandmother in hospital. cancer relapse. WTH?
and more and more and more. sometimes i really dont know whats going on anymore. but ill try again to pick myself up this time.
Sunday, May 13, 2007 @ 6:12 AM
crazy rollercoaster weekend.
DE saturday! briefing after briefing. but then at least the sandcastle briefing we had a chance to plan out a blueprint layout of the future AJC in 2037! haha. our design was.. really quite normal lah. after we saw some designs by the rest of the people. real crappy. i think our design was the only feasible one. yiheng still got teleportation machine.. wow lah!
sandcastle was damn fun. but its actually damn easy to do, once you get the hang of it. its kinda amazing, such a sophisticated thing coming out of something so simple. just put in the sand in the mould, add lots of water, pressurize the thing and voila! ahaha.
i love the delta people. they are so fun lah. sing and sing and sing all the way to the bus stop. as crazy as the wushu people. hahaha.
tuition and meeting sunday! ahaha sorry zhutou nu er actually got save seat for you de, but u came so late then catherine took it. ahha. paiseh!
finished most of the stuff today! feel so relaxed after typing everything out LOL.
thats it for now. econs test on wednesday.
Thursday, May 10, 2007 @ 7:43 AM
heh, wad a tiring day. chem test tomorrow, more or less flunked.
alford sick today, in the end i had to copy notes for him. he should thank me when he gets back eh? (hope ure seeing this alford. XD)
chee chung went home halfway oso, take care man. dont overwork yourself. and thats a shoutout to everyone else too. bad weather plus stress equals sick. okay, no link. paiseh.
some girl added me on msn. hmmm. hmmmm. SIAN.
tired.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007 @ 8:09 AM
actually after i talked to CS while waiting for his mum to pick us up, i realised that im a lot more different than i really perceive myself. and i guess some things have to change for the better. it might not be easy, but hell i might as well give it a shot.
blogging about my problems, i do not believe it is a sign of weakness. i guess its in myself to write about my problems and analyse them this way. but in a way it also weakens me -- in the sense that i resign myself to my probs in that very non-committal way. so i guess maybe if i stop talking about this crap online and publishing it to the world, the world might actually be a better place. (:
this should be the last emo post, or at least i will try and make it the last. but it doesnt mean i dont have problems, just that im not sharing. haha.i wanna grow stronger. but i guess it can only start from within. strength comes from within. it makes sense though. if i dont have the strength to carry myself, who am i to want to carry others with me? i will get stronger, but this time not only for others, but for myself as well.
okay, enough bullshit. i think i will bore people like suwen to death each time i talk to them. heh.
today we had EXCO interviews. managed to do almost all the people, only emily and marvel didnt manage to have it 'cos they weren't in school then. i think everyone did well. (:
mr alvin yeong. haiz. dunno how to describe him. he's a hard guy to please luh. i dont know how to put things across to him, later he say we are disrespecting him or smth. respect is earned, and demanding respect wont do anyone any good. if someone is supposed to MANAGE, he should not CONTROL. there's an underlying difference in everything said here.
oh yeah. PRIDE. i guess if a man is unable to swallow his pride, allow himself to learn and experience failure with humility, then i guess that man does not deserve any RESPECT.
"pride go'eth before a fall." even teachers can learn some stuff. time to open your ears and listen to what you say, before everything that comes out is irrelevant and inconsistent.
i will become stronger. from within. as of tomorrow, i will be a changed man.
Monday, May 07, 2007 @ 9:26 PM
cocked up computer at home.. im reduced to this. god, i want a laptop.
alot of things have happened since the last post. got the siao siao uncle at AMK hub, got my ce kong fan.. and a lot more lah.
i think i am slowly becoming numb when it comes to this. it doesnt feel so painful anymore to think about having to face the truth. i can only feel wistful and regret that im not the person who i want myself to be; that people expect me to be; that others would like to see.
a leopard never changes its stripes, just like a person cant change himself. but sometimes, change is needed to satisfy others. so what do i do? change who i am for others? or stay the same way for myself?screw this. i need a hug. ><
Thursday, May 03, 2007 @ 2:23 AM
sick today.. but it was a blessing in disguise. i managed to study and catch up with my proposals.
went to Bedok polyclinic at about 10am, and i only entered the doctor's room at 2pm. wth? this kind of waiting time is really unbelievable. at least i managed to read a bit of my book. jeez. and just went in for 10 mins to get my MC. crap.
i hope the rest did okay for math test today, heard it was hard. crap. now i dont know when i have to take it. sian.
today is my dad's and patrick's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUYS!
oh and my clogged nose is killing me. plus the air pressure on my right ear. goddamn. really should have drank more water. i regret falling sick all of a sudden. oh well. at least i dont have to go to school and face things which i cant handle.
i guess its time to move on eh? to start the ball rolling. sure, its easier said than done, but i guess we have to start sometime or another. clinging on to the past.. its too painful. get on with life.
i can say all this, but in the end, i guess im still a hypocrite. i never regretted holding your hand.back to school and training tomorrow! and i cant wait for badminton on saturday. if my health holds up, that is.
and hell yeah, bball and badminton won their matches yesterday! rock on team AJ!
distractions help me not think of you. but is that what i really want? 'cos deep, deep down inside, im a sucker for you.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007 @ 7:33 AM
what a labour-less labour day. not much work done, yet im so darn tired.
maybe its my own emotions messing up myself ba. i havent felt so tired without doing anything like this for a long time. its a bad sign.
i must start to buck up and study already. its now in may and the a levels are just around the corner. i must not disappoint my parents. i keep giving politically correct answers.
i wanna play badminton! my hands so itchy ever since last thursday in the hall. maybe this thursday if sixu not going buy shoes, or saturday at kr's house. see how ba. better not let my raquet rot at home haha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALFORD!
i think its time to really start the engine.. all things need to start slowly right? so i guess i have to pick up the pace again, start over and afresh. always start with the end in mind.wait till i NITRO on. ahahaha.