Sunday, December 28, 2008 @ 6:38 PM
the year is finally coming to an end.
i think that over this new year, its time to start anew, and forget the past.
forget the ugly things we witnessed, the betrayals and backstabbing. the fights, the quarrels and the shoutings.
instead, lets remember the smiles, the warmth and the good things which made our past year meaningful.
it doesnt matter if i dont have many friends or a large social circle.
what's important is that i have those who are close to me and truly understand and appreciate me for who i am.
and i suppose that goes for everyone else.
i think that over this new year, i will learn to let go of those who have shown to be black inside and not true.
i think i am fortunate to have people like alford and pat and aaron who dont need to make their presence known, but are always there to support me.
and wil and kr and cw who are my constant source of joy and laughter.
teng, for her constant offerings of HTHTHT.. although the reasons are doubtful! HAHAHA.
yvonne, for being the 小妹妹 who always need people to look after, and nyukmin for being the one we can always poke fun at.
the aj wushu juniors, who spas until cannot spas.
jules, my boss, the sorrows we shared and all the nice treats i had.
yea, these are some of the people who make my life meaningful.
we may drift apart because we have different priorities, but people who mean alot to you will always be around when you need them.
Friday, December 26, 2008 @ 3:26 AM
okay, havent done something like this in a while.
1. The person who tagged you is?
`wil
2. Your relationship with him/her?
`brother
3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
`hopeless at love
`act seh buay seh
`sometimes kao peh
`QUITE smart
`good bro (:
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
`listened to my problems and shared his feelings. we emo-ed together for quite a while.
5. The most memorable thing he/she said to you?
`ta ma de.
6. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on?
`looks.
7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
`杀无赦!
8. What is it you want to tell him/her now?
`merry christmas?
9. Your overall impression of him/her is?
`a good bro who stands by his own
10. How do you think people around you feel about you?
`im not really sure, why don't you ask those who know me well?
11. Which part of your character do you love about yourself?
`sensitivity to others' feelings (got me out of trouble many times)
`determination
`friendly
12. On the contrary, which part of your character do you hate about yourself?
`too trusting, especially to people close to me.
13. The most ideal person you want to be?
`i like myself the way i am.
14. For people who care for you and like you, say something to them.
`you people will always be in my heart. (:
15. Pass on this quiz!
`alford
`jules
`clarissa
`joanne
`wanching
@ 3:21 AM
best wishes for the holidays people!
this year's christmas celebration with the aj wushu people was just.. so aj wushu.
first, we were all LATE. and, we are all BLUR. can walk one round in the cathay and dont see each other.
but most importantly, we had lots of FUN! dinner at billy bombers, movie at cineleisure, ktv at partyworld!
not forgetting weaving through the crowd of crazy foam spraying people in orchard road. hahaha.
i only reached home at 7 am on christmas. and mum had to wake me at 11. oh wells.
it was great seeing the aj wushu family on christmas. (:
brings back alot of memories.
what happened on the morning of christmas eve..
Sunday, December 21, 2008 @ 6:02 AM
okay, here's a weird thing that happened to me a few days back.
i met this stranger on the street near my house. she was a middle aged lady who, from afar, looked alike one of my neighbours. so i did the instinctive thing and gave a wave and said "hi".
and that lady didn't look at me in a funny way, or dismiss my greeting or think i was crazy, but rather she paused for a moment, smiled and waved back.
"hey", she said.
funny huh? many a time we shun people just because we don't know them well. we stereotype and classify people all day long.
we judge by looks. that's how the world seems to work nowadays.
anyway, i got posted back to tekong. hopefully i can take the CPC course in january.
i decided to cut back on my social life. going out too often is time consuming and money burning. what's more, i gotta stay home more often and help out with the housework, since we no longer hire a maid.
staying at home may be boring, but at least its protection from the poisons of the outside world.
reality is like a thorny rose. it may be good to look at, but if you're not careful, you'll get pricked.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008 @ 3:58 AM
i don't wanna spend the new year alone leh.
solitude is ice-cold.
Friday, December 12, 2008 @ 10:37 PM
its been a whole year since i forsake my pink IC and took the green 11B. a year since i donned the green camouflage uniform and declared that i would give my life for this country.
a year since i experienced first hand how to handle a weapon, deal with fellow soldiers and survive cookhouse food.
a year since ive braved the jungle and long marches.
yes, this year has been a whirlwind of things just waiting to happen.
ive completed BMT in Mohawk COY. spent 2 weeks of block leave with a couple of my bestest friends, only to regret it later. ive walked hand in hand with someone special. i grew out of my rounded haircut.
i got posted to OCS. my hair grew longer. i made it through ST, amid all my doubts and fears. ive conquered the jungles in Brunei. ive lost 8 kg in the process. i got it back. i went through the harsh conditions in Taiwan. i got lost, and found my way. i came back, only to find ive lost something else. i had a goal to accomplish. i failed.
i had my rank taken away. my prospects are now gone. the dreams i once shared with 2 people in a bunk, sitting there and discussing on how we would live our 2 years, shattered.
after today, everything will be different.
i wonder what the next year is going to offer me?
i wonder if its just not meant to be.
Monday, December 08, 2008 @ 1:59 AM
i hate it when you fight.
its damn bloody ridiculous when squabbles can lead to cold wars that lasts for days.
have you guys ever thought of how me, brendan and sabrina feel?
and asking me to take a side? wtf.
relationships are meant to encompass give and take. where's all the giving?
and as if i don't have my own problems to deal with.
yeah, thanks alot.
im starting to understand my nightmares.
Saturday, December 06, 2008 @ 6:30 AM
the past few days has been good. no thinking, no commitment. just pure, focused fun.
i took off on friday, considering that i reached home at 0430 in the morning because of sentry duty on thursday. met alford for pool in the afternoon, walked and shopped for boss' present and went to have chicken rice for dinner.
spent time writing our "essays" and has a glass of vodka each. RA3 and xbox. we called it quits at 0200 and decided that sleep was a better way of killing time.
got up groaning at 0600, and left for the airport at 0620.
on our way there, alford asked me, "eh wad terminal is the flight ah?"
"erm, she said tentatively T3."
"tentatively, meaning may not be lah."
"eh yea. maybe luh."
so we arrived there and stared at the arrivals screens. ALL 3 terminals had flights coming from Perth. luckily we deduced it was T2 and so we waited.
fun-sized boss arrived back in SG! like finally lah. now i can get my pay and Icekimo. hahaha.
tonight i went for a BBQ with jon. it was a church thing, but since he had already paid for me, so just go lo. it turned out i met 3 people i knew there! what a small world eh.
had fun meeting new people and just crapping and complaining about NS, uni and stuff.
oh wells. there goes another week.
the things that you do, the things that you say. regret, disappointment, penance.