Friday, August 15, 2008 @ 6:19 AM
this is it.
i was supposed to leave at 0030 hrs today, but thanks to 2LT sum, i was able to delay my flight to Brunei and leave tomorrow so i could attend grandma's cremation. i guess i owe this largely to 2LT sum, wing comd and cpl ahmad. thanks alot, me and my family are eternally grateful.
i guess i lost restraint as i was sending grandma off. it was like a safety valve in me just opened and all the feelings poured out like sand in a bottle. i cried harder than anyone else today. funny thing ain't it? i guess in the end, letting her go wasnt that easy.
i spent some time with clarissa after everything was over. we didnt have crazy fun like before, this time was more quiet and peaceful. apart from the occasional scolding and pinching, yeah. it was good, spending time with the people important to you.
i was a good boy and listened, spent dinner with my parents. okay, that made me sound so unfillial. oops.
haha. im sorry i last minute pangseh zhenen and wanching to see nationals.. but my family more important ya. next time we go out and have fun lah.
yea. so now last minute blogging before i go off. ill be away 21 days people! so miss me yea.
ill see ya when i see ya.
i can wait forever.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008 @ 9:36 AM
okay. i finally get a chance to use this thing.
sorry if i have not had the chance to update this blog. im currently on 21 day RCP which means i cant go home yeah. this is a special case, ill elaborate later.
yeah RCP stands for Restriction of Cadet Privileges. confinement plus what it says lah. so technically i cant go home for 3 weeks. but heres the catch -- the RCP does not carry on while im training in Brunei, meaning my punishment will last me till 15 sept. zzz.
okay, yeah i fucked up big time. i misfired and was charged for negligent discharge. wtf.
im leaving for Brunei tomorrow midnight, so i guess its goodbye people. i wont be seeing you for 21 days, and probably more due to my RCP. so take care, if i dont see ya again, well you know where i last was.
the past 2 weeks have been confusing. ive been getting mixed readings from everything, so much so i cant think straight. this 21 days away from singapore, i hope, will give me some time to sort myself out. and maybe ill come back a changed person.
of all things to happen now, grandma just passed away. cancer relapse attacked her liver. i wont say much, just that i miss her alot. yeah.
thats me, just plain heartless.