Tuesday, January 20, 2009 @ 6:17 AM
im home! after like two weeks of confinement with my recruits!
im here for a measly nights off. oh wells.
all i can say is, these 2 weeks have been a real learning experience. i mean, getting a bunch of people to put their absolute faith in you and whatever you preach, thats something.
i guess once im home and catch up on people's blogs, i realize how isolated ive been.
i may have lost some old friends, but made new ones in the process.
and i feel sad, because as a person i strive not to lose or forsake any of my friendships.
oh wells.
this year will be better, i promise.
Thursday, January 01, 2009 @ 5:23 AM
its a new year already! so fast!
well, like what we always say, nothing lasts forever. apart from the tekan-ing and pumpings we do, this also includes the good stuffs. oh wells.
this year, i resolve:
- to be guided by my morals and intellect instead of my emotions
- to be swift and decisive in decision making
- to have in-depth thinking
- to forget the past burdens and sad things which happened, and move on
- to be a better friend
- to be a better brother
- to be a better son
- to be honest to myself as well as others
this year, i want:
- to save my money!
- to cook for the wushu juniors (if i can make it)
- to buy my laptop
- to apply for my overseas university
- to see less petty squabbles in the family
- my parents to be happy
- my friends to be happy
- WORLD PEACE! x)
thats a long list.
after typing them out, i realize that in order to achieve what i want for this 2009, much effort must be put in.
but i shall not give in. i look back at this year and see myself in OCS. how many times was it that i couldnt keep up during endurance runs? or my SOC? or just IPPT? i see my inherent weakness and that failure threatens to overwhelm me.
but, no more. this year shall be different. this year, i shall abolish all thoughts of letting go of what is important to me.
last night when dad was talking to our friends, i realized that i have no sense of priority. my long leave since a week before christmas was entirely spent slacking and rotting at home, or working out in the gym.
i have yet to decide on whether to pursue an overseas education, how i am going to save my money so that i can recover my losses.
and many other things.
what is important to me now, are my friends, my family, my education and my future.
with that in mind, i usher in the new year.
no more regrets, no more looking back. this time, i come home a winner.