Monday, May 18, 2009 @ 4:47 AM
back from field camp.
whew, its been a tiring 6 days man. i was so tired on saturday that i just concussed and fell asleep at 2200. and now im suffering from fieldcamp-lag.
its been a trying 6 days for me to manage to platoon. ive learned that i have to vary my teaching style with each batch, as they are different from the previous ones. OC mentioned that i should refine my technique more.
i guess i'll have to try harder next time.
i spent some time talking to the platoon after the fieldcamp, and explained to them my roles and responsibilities as a platoon sergeant. hopefully this way they will better understand my job and realise that i do not wish to always appear the bad guy in front of them.
in a way, i can now understand CSM and his difficulties. no matter how bad his attitude or how harsh he may be, he's just doing his job and ultimately, that keeps the company running, whether we like it or not. yes, it could have been better. but the work was still done, and i must say, efficiently.
so hypocrite or not, CSM did his work, and we should be grateful for that.
now a new CSM is in -- a guardsman from 3rd div. hopefully he's reasonable and understanding and the specialists will find it easy to work with him.
now all thats left in this batch is their IPPT to clear. im not so worried about SITEST or the 24km, as they have to do it anyway. but their IPPT requires effort, and im not sure all of them are willing to give 101% to achieve a good standard. furthermore, im DOS on thursday and i won't be able to be there to give them a boost during the test. sighs.
i guess things are more or less working out for me now. i have more focus and more time to myself. im no longer brooding or worried about ridiculously insignificant stuff as in the past. lets hope this keeps up and maybe one day ill forget all the crap that happened during this 2 years of tribulation.
omg that sounded damn drama. haha!