Friday, January 19, 2007 @ 7:27 AM
finally can update after a long school week. things have been hectic with lots of homework and deadlines to meet. i think im lucky so far to have survived. lol.
perception. it affects us so. people often judge others by first impressions, and even judge others based on their actions and behaviour. "Its not what i look like, but what i do that defines me." how true can that be. so, do people behave the way they do because they are merely being themselves, or are they trying to be someone defined by action? i suppose there are people who belong to both sides of the case. the important thing, perhaps, is which do I belong to?
have you ever been in a situation where you suddenly feel so self-conscious and aware of yourself? so much so that you become afraid that you will embarass yourself? and the repercussions of hence thereafter?
is being self-conscious a bad thing? trying to be someone who is widely accepted in social circles and not castaway because of difference? its amazing how a group of similar people would react to someone who is different from them. ostracising, perhaps, is a better term. to what lengths would a person go to to prevent themselves from being eliminated by the rest?
which is more important, being yourself or being someone who is accepted? lets face it -- the world is cruel.
i can accept the fact that people are born different. but isnt it our differences that make us unique and special? shouldnt that bring us together instead of apart? i guess i do pity those who are different. but sometimes, not because they behave the way they do, but because they try TOO hard to be someone they're not. THATS when people start to hate them.
is there even hope for me? i now feel so not in place when around you. there always seems to be someone there to fill my "place". im not needed in anyway. im useless to you, i guess. there is always another person there for you when they're needed. what kind of role do i play in YOUR life? do you know what kind of role YOU play in mine?