Saturday, February 10, 2007 @ 5:55 PM
yest went to sentosa with the wushu ppl.. it was the most fun i had since this year. although none of the seniors went, it was really fun despite all the sunburns and skin peeling. bonding session really went out well haha.
i want all the photos! argh. suwen quick quick send me! and xinying send me those u took oso!
i discovered something yest, something which left me shaken and unstable. it was something i suspected for a long time, yet i didnt dare to confirm it myself until fate played its hand and i strayed too far into something which i should not have. fate perhaps, decided i should play around with cw's phone. tmd, if only he had deleted those msgs.
many ppl are telling me diff things now, confess lah, keep trying, jiayou.. blah blah blah. but i dont know if i want to give up.
i dont want things to turn out wrong between us, i dont want to sour relationships and feel awkward and paiseh if things turn out wrong. which has a high probability. feelings are funny things eh? the way they control your life and fuck it up so much.
too many things at one time, too much to handle. im cracking up. god save me.
everytime i cry i see you smile, and everytime i close my eyes, i realise.. that you're fading away from me.. you are becoming out of reach, gliding off to another place..
all i want is to be okay