Sunday, April 27, 2008 @ 5:13 AM
woke up kinda uneasy today, since i slept so damn late last night. i guess i was more worried about other stuff than my own rest. i only went to bed when i decided that my phone wouldnt ring. so thats that.
so in the end i didnt have to go down to tpy that early, since dad was at home. so mum and sis went down in the morning, i stayed at home to coach my brother's homework. had char kway teow for lunch! and i went off to tpy myself after that.
grandma is really sick. a cancer re-relapse. and she's not looking too good.
i discussed with mum on how to manage my own finance. and i think i will stick with the OCBC false savings idea. i guess it would be better to cut off my own flow of money than to leave it hanging and tempting.
i met kr and yingtong at bishan. they were leaving after their treat from ahma's dad! so good lah. den me and wil dun hav. zzz. yingtong like grow taller leh! or maybe its her shoes lah. i learnt that girls use their shoes to GREAT advantage. and kr looked damn small standing next to us lah. haha.
so i went with kr, wil and kh for their first book-in. as usual, recruits have their pre book-in syndrome. haha. i did my best to comfort them lah, but i guess the feeling needs getting used to. but its alright, cos we'll see each other again on labour day!
and i bumped into many friends at pasir ris, since EVERYONE was booking in. that included my previous PC and commanders. haha. it was good seeing them again and talking crap with them. and makes me miss the old times.
i do miss the old times. but there are some things now i wouldnt give anything to lose.
why is heaven so unkind? she has fought your demons twice, and won. why do you plague her again and again? she was a healthy person who exercised regularly. she has a good heart. she cares more for others than herself. why do you try to take her away from the people who love her, time after time?
things are happening too quick. too many troubles in such short time. what if something were to happen while im away? i dont think i can handle it.
ive been thinking for very long. and i dont think i should, or could, change the way i am. for better or for worse, this is who i am. i may change my perception, but i guess things will always stay the same.
the same, miserable same.