Tuesday, November 14, 2006 @ 3:57 AM
im back after a night of absence to update on yesterday's events.
stayed at home until after lunch, then went down to jurong east for kbox with aaron, supei, melissa and gan min. mel and gan min were late so we decided to start first. finally, aaron is singing. and pigs are gonna drop from the sky. such a rare event, all caught on photo. as usual, mel and gan min owned the house with their singing. alright, i
zao xia for a few songs lah. im probably rusty already. haha.
went down to jurong point afterward, where we went hunting for birthday presents and met up with gan min's boyfriend. originally, we were supposed to makan dinner together, but then again, we dont wanna be lightbulb(s) so left and went our seperate ways. pigs are cute! what a way to relive the memories. heh.
on the way back, mel was talking to this guy called Hanger on the phone for the whole trip. still dare to say that she doesnt like him. haiz. this sort of thing is so obvious lah girl, like its written on your face. haha. no point hiding de. anyway, talked to Hanger for a while, he seemed nice but doesnt like mean guys. ahaha. im not mean, im honest. (:
instead of going back to his place, me and aaron went for pool! the uncle at monstercue was really nice, giving us 25% discount because we were students! haha. played for 2 hours. i only managed to get my touch back in the 2nd hour. haha. need more practice.
stayed over at aaron's place for the night. we originally planned to have a movie marathon but he was so tired that he fell right asleep not long after the first movie started. haha.
woke up late, had brunch at aaron's place, then went home. oh yeah, grabbed coffee bean on the way. the new peppermint mocha ice blended is absolutely heavenly. perfect for a warm and moody day.
now on to today.
did nothing much, stoned at the computer and listened to my music. thats about it. oh yeah, im gonna start studying soon. tonight, i hope.
i made it through. although it was painful, i made it through. seeing you walk through the door, i was momentarily content. do you know how i feel? i guess not. its too late for me, i guess. too late to get it back, too late for me to say im sorry, too late for me to ask why; what had happened to us? i thought we were happy. i thought we were content. i know i was. have i been led on? by the nose, scents entrailing me so seductive yet potently lethal. i guess i meant nothing to you. i have lost confidence in myself as a person being able to maintain a relationship. i have lost the faith that i had -- i no longer stride forth confidently, purposefully. purpose? purpose used to revolve around you. now, its all gone. i feel worthless, discarded, unwanted.marc, i know if you see this you're gonna scold me again. im sorry. but its the truth. the cold hard truth.truth is, i dont even know myself anymore.