Wednesday, November 15, 2006 @ 7:06 AM
now my eyes are open. not that i really miss it but, i suppose ive been excluded blatantly from ms tay's wedding. not that its important, but it really shows and tells me something. oh god. this is so hurting to know that im practically a pain in the ass to these people. and i thought we were friends. maybe its my delusion, maybe we were never friends. i should have realised it all along. i had never fit in. yeah go ahead, ostracize me all you want. im sick of this shit. at least now i know how some people really feel.
to make things worse, the msn messenger is failing me. every message i send seems to be unable to be delivered. fuck it lah.
had training today. it was damn tiring, since we had not trained since the exam period. but then again, we were slacking the whole way so who cares?
thats it, i've had enough of this. im seriously pissed off. i dont know to be sad, or angry at those kind of people who outcast others. i have had it with your silence, with your apathy, and i have had it with this world.
fuckers.
tonight its not about you. it was never about you. goddamn it. life is painful enough without this problem adding to it. it was a mistake trusting anyone. i cant trust anyone anymore. i dont know how.