Tuesday, December 19, 2006 @ 4:47 AM
rainy days.. really kills my mood. cant go out, stuck at home. it kind of forces me to do my holiday homework. which just bites.
cant wait for thursday, and next tuesday~ (:
oh well. boring is would how you could describe my life now.
okay, question of the day: how do you start to
jio a girl? i mean, its totally ridiculous to ask such a question. but if ever posed to you, what would you reply? is there a textbook answer? maybe different people would answer differently, and different people would accept different methods. oh well. people claim that dating, works. well, strike one, 'cause im seriously financially incapable of doing that. others tell me that if things click, then its all a go. how the hell you know if things click? its so difficult to read a woman's heart. ah hell with all this.
IGNORE THE PREVIOUS PARAGRAPH.
oh shit, im really going nuts. im thinking too much. its bad, you know. i dont even know why im thinking the stuff i am today. i seem changed, especially after that day. it seemed all prospectful at first, now i seriously need to reconsider and recollect myself. ive been.. hurt too much to want to try this again. and im still afraid of getting hurt again.
why do you fill my thoughts so? my dreams, even. im not safe in my sleep. not there. where can i find solace? i feel empty, cold. so.. alone. oh god what am i doing? id better stop my ranting. ill end here.