Tuesday, December 12, 2006 @ 9:48 PM
stupid weather yesterday. in the end cannot play badminton. argh. looks like have to wait for sixu to book court liao. haiz.
i really feel as though my time is wasting away in this last two weeks of holiday. im studying, doing what i should be doing, yet i feel that i could have done something more. something more useful. instead of reading and doing my homework and getting nagged at all day. whats the point if people are insatiable? its useless.
ever get that feeling of desolation? whatever you do its never enough for yourself? you cant be satisfied no matter what people say or think. oh god. im useless.
training later. i gotta leave at four. oh well. and its the j2 farewell dinner tomorrow. just thinking about it makes me headache again. i really dont know how im gonna handle this.
i dont understand what is wrong with having training in the evenings! its better than the afternoons. other people dont revolve around to individual whims and fancies. neither do ours! the best that i can do now is to plan ahead and work my way around the timings and appointments i have. true, i dont have to attend to all. but cant you trust me enough to plan for myself? you once said: "change what you can, but leave be what you cannot." i hold true to that today.
him: i have nothing. i am just a baker. unaccomplished in life. i have no dreams of being a millionaire or a person who can bring you everything.
her: you dont dream of being a millionaire? now thats new for a young man like you. what do you dream of then?
him: i dream.. i dream of peace, serenity. but then again, dreams are meant to be shattered. they never come true.
her: being a pessimist again?
him: no, like i said before, im just a realist.
her: thats what every pessimist says.