Saturday, June 28, 2008 @ 11:37 PM
haiz. block leave over so fast. time really flies when you're having fun. just thinking about booking in tonight makes me feel so sian.
i guess army really deprives you of the outside world. we are an isolated species, cut off from our peers and friends and family, not knowing what happens or how the world changes.
inside the army we do not experience compassion for our weaknesses, but rather the consistent pressure to overcome it. inside the army we do not experience the joy of external comprehension, but rather the fruits of experience. inside the army, we truly do not have the comfort of close friends and listening ears, the solace of a loved one, nor the warmth of another heart.
an isolated species.
we are not given opportunities to expand our knowledge of the world, but rather of methods to effectively disable our opponents. we are not given much opportunities to express our vanity and image, but rather learn how to apply camo cream properly.
inside the army, i spend more time thinking about what to do with my life than actually doing it. wtf.
and when im out, i realise that i cant really do anything about it, and that doesnt improve my mood alot.
when we're out, we see people earning a decent pay, learning to drive, attending uni camps, getting a girlfriend(s), moving on with their life. where's the silver lining, i say?
i wonder how some people make it work; get things moving when i cant seem to, these people make it look easy. some people are able to overcome impossible odds, and whether by luck or simply prodigious skill, make their lives better.
oh i give up ranting. wth this happens every book in.