Thursday, June 05, 2008 @ 11:46 AM
everyone is turning their backs on me. just turning, and leaving.
ignorance seems to be a common trend in people around me now. its okay. i think i can take just that bit more of ignoring and invisibility.
utility is the power word of today. make use of people, cast them aside, move on. and guess what, the list of people i can use is endless, since im so goddamn friendly.
is that what friends are about?
let alone people close to you.to me, friends are people who would take your burden and share your load. its these people who make your day seemingly easier. they take your mind off things. they ease the pain. they dont complain.
have i ever complained? have i ever made noise?
im here to share your pain.why do people need appreciation? according to Mazlow's hierarchy of needs, affliation ranks third. affirmation and appreciation gives people self-esteem. self-esteem gives people confidence.
confidence goes two ways. it takes the bearer to know what he/she is doing. it also takes the people around him/her to recognize that and appreciate it. thats what friends are for.
but i guess when people are too caught up in their own world they dont realise that there are other people out there to support them. instead of believing in those people as well as themselves, some would rather choose to lock themselves up in their tiny fortress and choose to ignore the people on the other side. everyone lives in seclusion.
yeah, let the whole world beyond those walls rot. they dont mean anything.
i have given so much, only to get back so little. and yet i am content. i have shared so much hard times and rough waters, only to feel double the pinch 'cos it has a different affect on my psyche. i have been through so much with my friends. and this is who i am, now and forever, to always be the one tanking through all the pain and suffering. face it. i am here to stay, like it or not. have it your way.
i have never been so hurt, one after another, in my life.
its all right if im unappreciated. its alright if im being used.
y'know what? i think its all right if i just disappear without a trace someday.
cos maybe then people will understand what bonds and peers and friends truly are. takes one death to educate a million, right?
take me as example. spare the 999,999 poor souls who dont know what they're missing.
let them live w/o suffering and be content with their solitude and walls of grey.
let those who truly care feel the real pain. not because they're overly emphatetic, but rather because no one truly cares.