Tuesday, May 08, 2007 @ 8:09 AM
actually after i talked to CS while waiting for his mum to pick us up, i realised that im a lot more different than i really perceive myself. and i guess some things have to change for the better. it might not be easy, but hell i might as well give it a shot.
blogging about my problems, i do not believe it is a sign of weakness. i guess its in myself to write about my problems and analyse them this way. but in a way it also weakens me -- in the sense that i resign myself to my probs in that very non-committal way. so i guess maybe if i stop talking about this crap online and publishing it to the world, the world might actually be a better place. (:
this should be the last emo post, or at least i will try and make it the last. but it doesnt mean i dont have problems, just that im not sharing. haha.i wanna grow stronger. but i guess it can only start from within. strength comes from within. it makes sense though. if i dont have the strength to carry myself, who am i to want to carry others with me? i will get stronger, but this time not only for others, but for myself as well.
okay, enough bullshit. i think i will bore people like suwen to death each time i talk to them. heh.
today we had EXCO interviews. managed to do almost all the people, only emily and marvel didnt manage to have it 'cos they weren't in school then. i think everyone did well. (:
mr alvin yeong. haiz. dunno how to describe him. he's a hard guy to please luh. i dont know how to put things across to him, later he say we are disrespecting him or smth. respect is earned, and demanding respect wont do anyone any good. if someone is supposed to MANAGE, he should not CONTROL. there's an underlying difference in everything said here.
oh yeah. PRIDE. i guess if a man is unable to swallow his pride, allow himself to learn and experience failure with humility, then i guess that man does not deserve any RESPECT.
"pride go'eth before a fall." even teachers can learn some stuff. time to open your ears and listen to what you say, before everything that comes out is irrelevant and inconsistent.
i will become stronger. from within. as of tomorrow, i will be a changed man.