Sunday, November 23, 2008 @ 3:49 AM
its amazing how things can change in the blink of an eye.
how your surroundings can warp and shift and transform into something you can't recognize.
it wasn't too long ago i was sure of my future and the direction i would take in life. i thought i had it sorted out -- my plans for the future.
i thought i would shine and do my family proud. i thought i would excel and overcome the challenges ahead of me. i thought i would earn the happiness i thought, and other people thought, i deserved.
but no. life has to play its upper hand.
and now my life is upside down and so not the way i wanted it to be.
i guess i should be depressed, and i should be down.
but i won't spend a day crying. i won't sob on someone's shoulder.
what i can do is make the best of what i can, and work on from there. sure, things may be uncertain, things may not be at its best. but i can do what i can to ensure that my life is under my own control.
people who have crossed me in a way or another. there's one thing in me that hasn't changed. that forgiveness is hard to earn. that trust is hard to keep.
i don't know who to trust anymore.